And I am back!

By Amanda on 1/27 • 6 Comments

Apologies for the uber long hiatus. It was unintentional, mainly because I made a very big decision in my life and ended an almost two year relationship and it was awful and terrible and yet good all at once. I have been trying to keep my mind busy. Its been difficult but it is getting better. I have amazing friends and I am actually GOING OUT and DOING THINGS! I’ve been meeting up with friends on the weekends for drinks and to hear live music and it’s been amazing. It’s been over a month since I ended it and I have good days but I have very bad days as well where I feel like crying but you’ll have those for a while. I bought a journal and I’ve been writing down my thoughts every other day which has helped quite a bit.

I’ve also been having anxiety attacks due to the stress of that and dealing with everything, which I really can’t deal with. It got so bad last week that as I was driving to school, my mind went blank for like 10 seconds and I forgot how to drive. It was horrifying. I couldn’t stop shaking and almost had to pull off to the side of the rode to throw up. Needless to say, I made an appointment with my family doctor and he diagnosed me with an anxiety disorder. I am on medication which has been a freaking blessing! Now I am taking it day by day.

School has been going well and, speaking of which….I got the internship! I start April 9th and at the end of the two months, I have a 50/50 chance of being hired on full time :-)

Once upon a december

By Amanda on 12/10 • 5 Comments

Seriously, where has the time gone!? Next week is the end of my first term at school and the past two months have flown by. And speaking of which, school has been going well. I got my first certification in Microsoft Word 2013 and just yesterday passed the first (out of two) certification exams for Word Expert! It was difficult, I’m not going to lie. I’ll be happy when we’re finished with Word (although when we start Excel after break, I’m sure I’ll wish I was back in Word again!) I still have the second exam to pass and if I do, I’ll be certified in Word Expert. Not sure how I’ll do though; my class spent a good three days just studying and going over our practice tests and projects and, well, we weren’t doing too well. However, a pass is a pass for me so I’m happy with the score.

One of our internship sites is looking for an intern and who they pick, they plan on hiring that person after the internship is over. I would LOVE for this to be me! The interview will be taking place next week and they’re going to choose who they want (usually our professor chooses the internship site for us). Unfortunately, I don’t have that great of luck but everyone in my class deserves the position so while I’ll be upset, I’ll be happy for whoever is chosen nonetheless. I could use some good luck wishes though!

Untitled-1 My poor little Z got neutered last Friday and, instead of being lethargic and sleepy, he was (to put it lovingly and lightly) quite a bit psychotic. I’m assuming he just reacted differently to coming off the anesthesia than other/most cats do but couldn’t stay still. He was running around, jumping off things, and I was afraid he was going to hurt himself. Unfortunately, that is EXACTLY what he did. His little leg was swollen the next morning (you can tell in the photo) and he was limping and not putting too much weight on it. I felt so terrible! I managed to get him in to see the vet and she told me it was just sprained and to wait a few days to see how he does. Thankfully the swelling has gone down but apparently he thinks he’s invincible because he’s still running and jumping and sometimes I’ll see him limping. Hopefully his leg will be able to heal properly. I can’t stand seeing him hurt! My mom texted me and said he’s been doing great today so that’s good news! :)

Where for art thou domains?

By Amanda on 12/2 • 7 Comments

Sometimes when I have time during class, I’ll browse The Wayback Machine and view updates from my old personal sites and fansites. It’s sad because I love to do this. Like, all the time. IT’S FUN. So today I decided to see if I can find all my previous personal domains and this is what I was able to come up with (I feel like there should be more but this list is already somewhat long so I’ll leave it at that):

I’m not counting all the times I was hosted under a subdomain – we’d be here all night! I do remember my very, very first site. It was called “maquina” and hosted by my friend Allison from Those were fun days and I miss Allison, who I lost touch with over the many years. The first domain I ever purchased was a Christmas present to myself: in 2006. If there’s one domain I miss, it’s definitely that one (and!) I have had going on three years now and it’s by far my favorite domain and it fits me. Do you guys remember your very first domain?

Finally! A real, live, proper update!

By Amanda on 11/11 • 2 Comments

Well, a shortened version of it anyway! Things have been pretty messy around here for some time. However, I do have excuse! This year has been eye opening, challenging, sad, hopeful, and just very, very different. Relationships were made, relationships were lost. I started school seven years after I graduated high school; discovered that I absolutely hated my major, withdrew and then enrolled in to a Business major which I am thoroughly enjoying right now. I got a cat named Zelda (she is crazy and I love her) and a job. I’m currently trying to figure out how to juggle school, work, and relationships all at once…it’s hard. But I’ll get it. My life has changed quite a bit and unfortunately my online time/life has sadly dwindled. I’m trying to get back into blogging and designing, though I’ve stopped having a design site (however, if anyone is in need of a design, feel free to email me and we can work something out!) My goal is to keep BH updated at least once a week (cue Siobhan laughing at me in the background because she knows how I am :P) I know that I all but disappeared online for most of this year so if anyone has any questions they’d like to ask, feel free!

As you can tell, the navigation links aren’t working. I’m going to slowly add content to BH but everything should be up and working by the end of this week. I hope everyone likes the layout! It’s simple and aesthetic, just how I like blogging layouts. I’ve also been thinking about offering it as a free theme (after I clean up the mess that is the CSS), would anyone be interested in this theme? :)

I want to thank Kya for hosting BH! It’s wonderful to be under Kya’s loving hosting wing once again!


By Amanda on 11/5 • 0 Comments

BH is up and running! :)